Mello and Matt no2

PG for Too Emotional
Unheard Farewells

Matt,

If you are reading this, I have died in the attempt to capture Takada. Regardless, I know what we did will prove to be key in the Kira investigation, even if it means we’ve helped Near. Only we could’ve done this, and looking at the big picture, it’s a battle against Kira, not against Near. Just don’t ever tell him that.

I just want you to know, I’m sorry. I’m sorry for leaving you so abruptly, like the day I left the orphanage, walking away as you were held back by Roger and you called my name, and tried to convince me to stay, with no success. I can still see your face in the window, the only time I ever looked back at that place. The image is as clear as the real you I’m seeing right now, and so is every memory we ever shared. I’m sorry that I’m leaving you with all those memories, but with no possibility of making new ones. I’m sorry for all the times I treated you like my slave, I’m sorry for all the times I ever snapped at you, you didn’t deserve a single one. I’m sorry I never said this to you in person.

Throughout my entire life, you are the only person I ever felt anything for. All the friends I ever had, they didn’t mean much to me. All the women I was ever with, I didn’t love any of them. No one knew me like you did, not even close. No one shared as many laughs, had as many pointless fights, or passionate moments as you did with me. To no one else did I open up so much, emotionally and spiritually. No one but you would even believe I could write this.

I want you to take care of yourself. I want you to move on as quickly as possible. I want you to accept what has already happened, and go in search of something that you’ll one day think is even better than what you had until now. I know you are capable of that. I know your strength better than anyone. I know behind the goggles, the cigarettes, and video games there is an emotional strength I could never have. I know you’ll be able to use it to your advantage. Through the best of times, and worst of times, you were there for me, and you ought to know that I will always be there for you, not physically, but I’ll be there.

To my best friend,
Goodbye.

Mello

Mello stood up, walked to the bedroom, and hid the note under the bed sheet, but Matt would never get the chance to read it.